Third Time's a Charm

Here I sit, nearly 11 at night and I have rummaged through every last memory box, picture album, and old forgotten journals. I am nostalgic in the worst way. I look back on many things in my past and think to myself, "How wonderful things were back then." Especially now, a senior in college about to graduate in May with no job lined up and no clue what to do with my future, parts of my past seem pretty great right about now. 

Third time's a charm for me. I began a blog on Wordpress a couple of years ago. I had to do it for a class, but I kept up with it and people loved it. About three months ago I was going through this phase where I thought about absolutely nothing other than my future career. It consumed me. So I deleted everything off that blog and began a new blog on Social Media, thinking only of my future employers of course. 

It bombed. Actually, it would have been quite good. I got 100 views in the first day I started it. But I became stressed - about my future, my job, my life, and more. So much so that as a 21-year-old I got shingles (which the doctor said was related to stress), I had four canker sores in my mouth at one time, had the worst stress-related acne breakout I ever had, and even lost a few pounds - all within a matter of a couple months. So needless to say, I didn't have the energy or time to put into that second blog as I had hoped. 

Now, I have finally come to the reasons why I truly want to blog, and the reasons why the other two bombed. 

1. I wrote for other people - not myself. Yes, sometimes I wrote stuff I liked, but I had to do it, writing felt like a chore sometimes rather than something I have always been in love with. 

2. I told my followers when I would publish a new post. You read any good blogger and most of the time they'll tell you to have a certain day or days to post a new blog. But again, I felt guilty for missing my own deadline I created for myself that I just eventually gave up. So now, instead of writing when I have to, I'm going to write when I want to. 

3. I had a strict subject to follow. Again, most blogs obviously have a theme or specific topic of choice which they follow - which is great! But I felt restricted by those subjects sometimes and my creativity bubble would burst. Now, not only will I write when I want but also what I want. 


So there you have it. A little taste of this blog. I love to write about everyday ordinary things that become extraordinary in my life. I will write about heartache, or laughter, or pens, or shoelaces, or summer, or the way the waves sound as they lap against the shore. I will about whatever comes into my heart. Enjoy